Year 2019 Recap: Vici's Busy, Burnout Year + Thoughts on Happiness and Danish Society

Image source: https://blog.trello.com/job-burnout-how-to-fix-the-aftermath-of-an-overachiever-attitude

Hi everyone. 

It's 04:41 AM here, just thought I would write down some thoughts here, predominantly for myself to get a better overview in my head. Last time I wrote a personal blogpost was a long time ago. Yesterday I came home at 08 AM from a political/chill party and later watched The Joker with my family, which was great. Anyway.

This blog is aimed at no one in particular. I made a vlog about this post, because I accidentally closed my browser window while typing, and I lost everything. I was really pissed at myself and it was like 03-04 AM, which ruined the next day a bit tbh. 
I worked long on that blogpost, but I have made this shorter one, instead of what I had planned. I can't turn back time; I must learn from my mistakes.


Here's the corresponding YouTube vlog:

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CswrwBbcO9M

This year has been many things; I was initially planning on having a more relaxed year (which is why I took less courses), but that certainly didn't happen.

Here's what I have used time on in 2019:

• Civil procedure law course and exam
• Trying for a driver's license 
• Getting an unpaid job
• Getting a paid job
• Cepos Academy 
• Extended taxation law course and exam
• A little modeling and music in my free time
• Feature on my friend's song
• Helping my mom with new laptop, phone and iPad 
• Helping with bathroom renovation plans, research and designs 
• Getting a cat???
• Applying for Justitia Academy 
• Helping mom plan citizenship test

Civil procedure law course and exam went OK. I got an alright, above passing grade. I didn't care much for the course, but I see it as necessary to have. It's not very exciting and reminded me of General Administrative Law, which I had many years ago. It's all about dates and deadlines. It's very dusty.


Driver's license probably shocked me and fucked me the most over. 
First of all, in Denmark it is waaaay to expensive to take. It's understandable, since Denmark hates cars and try to make people not want to buy any cars, use any cars or park any cars, ever. 
Second of all, the tests are silly and written in "weird old danish" and not very logical to understand – it's something you just have to memorize to pass, even if the answers do not seem like something a normal person would answer.
Third of all, I feel like my first driving school fucked me over and deliberately stalled me for as long as possible, without letting me progress at all. I don't feel like I learned much and I almost paid 9.000 DKK extra for my license, which really made me mad/disappointed. 
My new driving school is better and let me progress very quickly. 



Cepos Academy was really fun and I learned a lot. 
Met many like minded people and used 8 days in total for discussions about politics, economy, philosophy, morals and the likes. We discussed for hours and heard about different viewpoints on important subject matters.

One downside was that the rooms were way too cold and many students complained about this (esp. the girls, lol). Other than that I'm happy I got in and it was a nice break from extended tax law, which as a course just makes me so sad. 


Extended taxation law course and exam did not go over well. The course felt very long, even though we had a great, charismatic teacher. I got sad whenever I real about taxation and felt that the book was shitty and way too long and didn't get to the point. The shorter compendium was much more useful to me. 

In the exam I blacked out and forgot everything. I hate exams and get really really really anxious. I can't sleep for days, I get bad skin, I get bad stomach, I get headaches... I feel like dying.

I am disappointed in myself because I studied really well and felt like I didn't deserve to go out and have fun with my friends. I hated myself after that exam, so much. I'll try better next time. I generally have a bad time with exams.



Getting a cat as a gift from my dad. It really shocked me when I got it, but as my dad has taught me, sometimes I can be too perfectionistic and not spontaneous enough. The cat is female and she's a delight with a quirky personality. I named her Laika, after the first living being in orbit (the Russian dog Laika, which ironically means "the barker" or something like that).
For Christmas  I didn’t really wish for anything material, I wished for time, stability, health, security and passing exams... which no human can buy. 
Here you can see our Christmas tree and me on Christmas Eve: https://www.instagram.com/p/B6rp14RhXhX/




I am thankful for, in general:

• That I didn't get thrown out of uni 
• That mom is happy and has a sweet boyfriend
• That brother is loving his job and progressing
• That dad is doing OK and living as he pleases
• That I am physically healthy, have a roof over me, have food, clothes and devices
• That I am slowly but surely moving on with my degree 
• That I have a family – brings tears to my eyes to know how much they've done for me, I feel like I wasn't thankful for this when I was a tween/teenager 
• That I can enjoy music, art, fashion and shows
• That I got the two jobs and am getting experience and a salary 
• That I have privacy and freedom of expression (which you only really appreciate when it's gone)

Adult life + Danish worldview

People always told me that "When you are young and in school it's the best time of your life". Sadly, I don't see that as being the case.
I should be happy to live in Denmark and having a good degree and a nice family, but I just sense that life could be more, better and more efficient. 
I am always thinking about the future and what will come next. 

In my country I feel like a cog in a wheel. A huge wheel that is only based on taxing the shit out of everyone and making everyone as equal/mediocre as possible. I think this is scaring the entrepreneurs and visionaries away.

Life in Denmark isn't 100% fulfilling for me.
Danish people are usually very different from other nationalities and this is also why dating Danish guys hasn't "clicked" for me. I tend to think very deeply about everything and I have visions for the future. I don't want to be passive and follow rules mindlessly. 
As I said in my YouTube video, a dictator could easily overtake the Danish people; it's a very non-confrontational people and tend to protest behind people's backs rather than say it directly to the person in question's face.

"According to Maslow, we have five categories of needs: physiological, safety, love, esteem, and self-actualization. In this theory, higher needs in the hierarchy begin to emerge when people feel they have sufficiently satisfied the previous need."

As we see in Maslow's pyramid of needs; Self-actualization is the thing I feel like I am missing from interactions with Denmark and Danish people. They do many things greatly, but I wish they would protest more.

Image source: https://www.thoughtco.com/maslows-hierarchy-of-needs-4582571

Maybe it has some roots in the "Jantelov" (Law of Jante):

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Law_of_Jante

Image source: https://www.pinterest.co.uk/pin/256283035029820667/

Things in Denmark that would personally make me happier:

• Remove the blasphemy law
• Make beastiality sex illegal
• Separate church and state more
• Lower taxes
• Encourage people to think for themselves/protest more
• Make circumcision illegal 
• Remove monarchy and add republic with direct democracy 
• Cheaper cars and public transportation
• Change building laws and thereby lower rent
• Make more factories, produce more stuff locally
• Do so there's less calcium in water 
• More protection of and rewarding of whistleblowing 
• Remove many laws/make laws simpler to understand
• Maybe make a 3-4 days workweek (more freetime)
• Maybe pay workers "pr. job" instead of "pr. hour" (more efficient working)

If you read this blog and/or watched my vlog, I hope you found it interesting. Feel free to comment your thoughts below. 

Thank you.

– Victoria

Respect - given or earned?

Image: http://gregdetisionlinesuccess.com/2011/08/26/active-listening/

Listening to: Domino Dancing by The Petshop Boys, Dark Horse by Katy Perry & Don't Go by Röyksopp

Good afternoon!
I started writing on this at school, where we were talking about branding in our AT8 project. We jumped around many irrelevant nice topics. I discussed religion, and then respect with one guy, and we agreed on respect being a two way street. I  thought I would write a short post about it and what I think about it.

Image: http://www.reddit.com/r/OaklandAthletics/related/1gcq4v/the_as_get_no_respect/

Since forever, I have been called "the black sheep" in my family, or sometimes "the bitch", because I had different views than them and I was open to other people and their choices. I have libertarian views, which oppose my Polish family's views of "I should go to church and be a christian because they said so", "parents are always right", "you should wear this clothing and act this way because you are this gender" and traditional stuff like that. Many times I have been the cause of been in huge arguments because I wanted justice, I wanted equality, and apparently that's not how anyone was raised back in ol' Poland.
I understand the "respect your parents" and "respect your elders" way of thinking, but I do disagree. I do not believe in "good" or "bad" people, and I feel that it's logical to judge people not on their age or their title, but on their actions and motives. Also, remember the saying "Man skal ikke kaste med sten, når man selv bor i et glashus" which means, don't be hypocritical, treat others as if you'd like to be treated.
Just because you're old does not give you right to walk all over others. I respect if someone has accomplished a lot of fought in a war etc, but I act on what you do now, in front of everyone. And parents should not be respected if they act like horrible monsters towards you; fx children who have been molested, beaten up severely and locked in a basement for 10+ years. It is just so hypocritical to say that you should respect them and then they don't fucking respect you back. And if they have some sort of medical/mental issues, they should explain that beforehand so that people don't judge them too harshly. So I think the phrases "respect your elderly" and "respect your parents" are bullshit.

Image: http://www.redbubble.com/people/neoquaid/works/9303881-give-respect-get-respect?p=sticker

I have also had the discussion with my bigbro several times about respect. I always said that "respect is given" but he always says "respect is earned". I can see that. I can feel it from both perspectives.
Is it respect to leave people alone in public? Or is it common behavior? Is is respect to obey someone? Is is respect to praise someone? What is respect? Do we take it for granted?
I myself feel that I respect everyone until otherwise proven that I shouldn't. And then it's not like I will hit them in the face, most times (after a possible big argument with them) I will just stop associating myself with them and leave them alone (and hope they leave me alone, too). What do you think? This discussion can go on and on with people and I would like to hear your opinion :)

Bye for now, see u next time :)
– Lé Vici 

I shouldn't respect you/give you "extra respect" if you don't respect me. 
Don't put up with shit from people if they don't treat you appropriately. Remember that, motherfuckers! 

Political issues, yo

Image: Welcome to the internet page on fb

Listening to: Hold Me Lonely Boy (KarmaK Re-edit) by Norma Jean (as heard on the Zulu ads...)

Hi everybody! ("i'm doctor nick...")

I'm back yet again. We started the school week with gymnastics, and we went running up and down metallic stairs next to our high school. Some people twisted their ankles, and some even tasted blood. Fuck, I'm starting to believe that our teacher is a small Duracell bunny, she may even run in her sleep.

We've also had a lot of biology and... umm.. "classic studies" and it's ok. Many of us believe that classics should be a sub category to history or social science or even religion.

We made some brain stuff in psychology.

Tuesday we got our picture taken and I came in very late because I did my makeup real quick in the school bathroom. Silly me, can never get up on time. Our "silly pic" is my class being fatties with pillows for stomachs + pizza, chips, cola and so on.

I would like to look like this:

But I'm probably gonna end up like this:

Wednesday I was with Rebecca out to hear a presentation about the bloody drug war and Mexico/USA conflict by Ebbe Fischer. MOS, our spanish teacher, suggested it, and it was nice :) 

All instagram images are from my personal instagram.

You can hear/download the full presentation and discussion here for free:

Part 1: https://soundcloud.com/rebeccabusck/verdens-blodigste-narkokrig-1 (starts at 3:33)

Part 2: https://soundcloud.com/rebeccabusck/verdens-blodigste-narkokrig-2

Anyway, this post will be about government and politics. As you can see in the picture above, "Welcome to the Internet" posted this political comic on Facebook. It's a cow about to be slaughtered, it doesn't matter if it goes to the left or to the right; it's the same deal. I can sorta feel this. 

But the comment "Just go fucking backwards" interested me; what did he mean by that? There are many forms of going back, and I don't think going back to the patriarchy/racist/old fashioned times would work. I do see the thing with going back to times when people weren't under such a huge government; that is just my point of view, I'm not 100% sure what political ideology I follow because I feel that each party probably has its ups and downs, but for now I feel kinda "libertarian/anarco capitalist/a bit conservative" ish. 

I think there are many blurred lines (*i know you want it*) in subjects such as politics, but I do believe in legalization of drugs (I think it's bad for your body to take them tho), smaller state, free market, the right to abortion, green energy and marriage equality. 

I don't believe violent games/films/music causes violent people. I'm against circumcision because the individual is not old enough to know what's going on - I've even debated in my head if it's ok to baptize children and take them to church at a young age. I'm against religion, but I don't mind what people believe in. I think that people with really severe handicap/illnesses shouldn't reproduce, for themselves, the child's and the society's sake (but of course, no forcing! it's up to themselves). 

I'm also ok with nuclear power, as long as it's done right (it's better than fossil fuel IMO). I'm against treating people inferior because of their gender, looks, race, religion, status, job etc - I respect people based on how they act, not on some non relevant factors. I'm not sure about death penalty; but if I am, it has to be a really serious crime and it has to be 100% factual that the person did it.

I'm actually not sure how I feel about democracy - I know that it's better than dictatorship etc. but I'm not sure if it's the best choice to put power in something just because the majority says/thinks something about it. 

Image: http://www.biostim.com.au/news/Democracy-Two-wolves-and-a-sheep-voting-on-whats-for-dinner/

I believe that people should be able decide for themselves, and do whatever they want as long as it doesn't harm/hurt others. I like to discuss political and ethical issues with people if they want to; hell, very few of my friends think the same as I do. I think it's boring to surround yourself only with people that you have something in common with, you don't get to challenge yourself and them. Life isn't always a circle jerk.

What do you think about politics? What do you think about government? What countries do you think are doing it right? :)

Image: http://www.feelingeurope.eu/Pages/ideologies.html

Here are my results of the political party test: http://www.politicalcompass.org/test

That was all I had to say for now! Have a nice weekend, see you soon.

P.S., today I chose my SRP subjects (english and biology!) holy shit! i'm hella nervous!

– Lé Vici